I fought this for several years. I experienced god in what the Bible said he was. Jesus was my everything. I would pray and seek god daily, and worship god often. I would pray for my loved ones, and for many others. I wanted revival for them. I lived a life of peace and joy. But, there were also times of backsliding and dealing with doubt and unbelief. And also leaving faith completely to do my own thing. At this time, I believe in a higher power. I believe in Christian principles. I don’t agree with everything I have read in the Bible. I have found errors and also researched them in my life. I found out there is truth in the Bible, but it isn’t all true. And for many years, my life was wrecked with confusion and depression, not understanding why my faith didn’t work. Today I have found my peace. I have come to understand that there is a creator, but I cannot determine the truth about our creator. I know our creator’s voice, but I’m not sure about our creator’s actual truths and what is actually real and what isn’t yet, according to life. I’m learning. But, the Bible did create the path and blueprint for the faith I have now. It gave me a way to get what I need. So, I am taking this step by step, and learning a true walk with our creator from my own journey through out life, as god chooses to lead me.
But, this is one question I battled for several years. If god is good and god is love, but Jesus said only few find eternal life, how is that possible? Wouldn’t it make sense if god is good and he is love, that the majority of his creation would be saved? Why would a good and loving god destroy the majority of his creation in a lake of fire and eternal torment? I don’t know about you, but that doesn’t fit the definition of being good and love. It also doesn’t fit the experience of the goodness I know from my own experience with the presence of a good and loving god. Did god create us to hate us? I don’t believe god did. And I don’t believe most people go to hell. That would make god a liar and devil himself. That would make his promises void and untrue. I believe we reap what we sow. I believe choices have consequences. But, I also believe god is better than that than to just let most people go to hell. Wouldn’t that make Satan stronger than god? And wouldn’t eternity be sad for everyone, whether they were in hell or with god? Could anyone with god truly be happy forever without the majority of their loved ones? That doesn’t make sense- that doesn’t agree with sound logic. So, I have come to the conclusion that if that is true according to the Bible, and most people go to hell, I no longer want that in my life, because eternity is going to be devastating either way. So, I have put what I have learned behind me, and I am pressing forward believing that the god I know is good, and most people do not go to hell. You can believe whatever you want- I am sure you have your own opinion and understanding, but you can’t tell me that god is good and loving, yet he is sending most people to hell and that is just the way it is and going to be. I have better things to do than live in that torment, don’t you? So, I have found to let that worry and fear go, and to strive to live my life without as much regret as possible, so I can enter into life with joy and hope, and not disappointment and frustration. Whatever you believe is your right, but I hope you can understand that this will never make sense in a way that works, that god is good and love, yet he is sending most people to hell. Be blessed.
Faith Conclusions 